My Dog is Happy
by Growing Flowers
Today was jammie day! I stayed in my (new) jammies for the entire day. The girls stayed home. We chatted on our couch – it fits three of us easily and super comfortably. We talked and bantered and laughed a bunch today. Good talks. Kaya made diced potatoes sautéed with green chile and onions for breakfast. (More like lunch!) The hot coffee was perfect.
I had planned on continuing the purging of yesterday. I spent yesterday organizing in the New Year. I did laundry, straightened, cleaned out cabinets, closets, and did some more organizing. Vacuuming and mopping too. Actually, it was sunny today and I was luxuriously lazy. The house felt like it was already perfect. I know its messy secrets, but today I chose to ignore them.
Instead, I drank tea and read and finished The Help. I loved the book. I couldn’t put it down, had to read the acknowledgments and author’s note. Finished just in time for a late dinner of Kaya’s most scrumptious BLTs.
Feeling grateful for what I have. Desperately grateful really. There is a lot of pain out there. Hard stuff. We can only live directly in the now, love our family, give to our children and hope to remain safe from it all. We are such vulnerable beings. Truly. Had a long phone conversation today. Good thoughts, uncomfortable ones too. Like, magical thinking.
If we are kind (or at least honest), if we do the right thing. We will be unharmed. Unhurt. Create beauty. Work hard.
But life is not like that. Things happen super fast. Shockingly fast. I think of my dad’s life every single day. It went from a morning run to a brainstem aneurysm in seconds. Not death, but his life veered off course in one minute flat. We are not in control.
Bask in what you have. Really. What makes you happy? Think about it often.
So, so true.
I’ve been having a lot of heavy thoughts and other thoughts as to how to counter them. I don’t know if they pertain to the thoughts running through your hear, but perhaps they do. There is a lot going on in the world right now.
Blessign s to you . . . And yes, I feel I came to a similar place . . .
Happy Jaunuary
Me too. Lots of thoughts about mortality around here. Lots of people dying or almost dying. So hard. Soo so intense. I am under no illusion that we will all live forever. But I sure hope so!