So here’s how it goes over here…. I seem to have more free time. I think it is partly because I am allowing myself to just “be” instead of actively mothering or modeling the “mom.” Does that make sense?
I guess what I mean is this…. I’ve always been insanely conscious of modeling behavior. Trying to always represent who and what I’d like to be to the girls! (Don’t be fooled though, they have always seen right through me.) A busy bee, working hard, being productive. I was always doing the things I wanted my girls to be seeing me doing. I didn’t feel like I should just lay around in bed reading a book all day. (Whether this is faulty thinking or not is not the discussion, just an explanation…. definitely faulty thinking!)
Now – my plan is to read my book on the couch today. (Reading On Laughter and Forgetting by Milan Kundera). Eating Nutella and butter on toast.
Taking pictures of my garden…..
I’ll do some studying as well. But, today, I’m only worried about me. (Falko is doing clinicals.) What do I want to do?
I could get used to this!